I'm sitting here doing this, when I should be doing all manner of Other Things.
Well, I am so much better, in body and mind! I went for the scan and it came back normal. Now, would you believe it, the pains I had (both sides of the upper stomach, and under the breast bone) disappeared within days. This happened before, after I had a colonoscopy. Anyway, it's like a miracle, not worrying anymore. For anyone that doesn't know what it's like to be in the grip of raging hypochondria, it takes over your life (this last bout went on for four months). Every waking moment is filled with a feeling of impending doom, even when you look like you're having a great time. It never goes away. You just can't talk yourself out of it, even though you know you've been through it all before. And you're so certain that there must be a reason for the pains this time. And it turns out you're fine and will live to see another day. The power of the mind is incredible, and psychosomatic symptoms are no joke. If only I could harness the power of the mind to positive effect - must find out how.
I haven't felt anxiety now for about two or three weeks - and it's like heaven. I'm hoping I can keep this up for more than a year (my record is a year and a half).
Right now, though, I am actually a bit under the weather. Had a raging temperature yesterday (you know, sore skin etc) but feel a lot better today, though my glands are up and my throat is very sore. I can cope with that - it's not a mysterious illness, so it doesn't worry me.
Charlie has been ill on and off for a month now. He's had conjunctivitis and a terrible cold, with his temperature going up and down like a yoyo. I'm so looking forward to us all being well again. It's just typical that I'd been back on the fitness thing with renewed zeal for about a week, when I got this bug. So frustrating.
Thank you so much for asking about me, and I can assure you I feel like a different (normal) person and I'm enjoying every day!